fresh start.

Today is the first day of my new life. My life alone. I'm not going back again. I can't. How do you go from lovers to just friends? Is that even possible?

Can you really fall out of love? Does love even exist? I think the answer is yes. People change, feelings change, but that doesn't mean you didn't love them.. at one time. Life is a funny thing. Just when I think my world is ending I remind myself that I'm still alive. I have wonderful friends and an amazing family. That's all you really need, I think.

Friends. What a loose term people use. Is someone that's your 'friend' just forget to mention that they're going to have a baby? I mean you have a whole 9 months to figure out the words to string together. Is that a real friend? Or is a 'friend' someone who can walk out of your life when you've made a bad choice and you need them the most? Sometimes I think I just ask for too much.

Adele is my new favorite. She has such a sweet, calming voice. The lyrics from her songs could write my life story.

I heard that you're settled down,

That you found a girl and you're married now,

I heard that your dreams came true,

Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,

Old friend, why are you so shy?

Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,

But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,

I had hoped you'd see my face,

And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Never mind, I'll find someone like you,

I wish nothing but the best for you, too,

Don't forget me, I beg,

I remember you said,

"Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Sometimes it lasts in love,

But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah.