simple.

It's time. I can't do it anymore. I'm tired of questioning everything. I think sometimes I expect too much, or maybe not enough. Where do you stop? Where do you draw the line? When is it time to say enough is enough? Is it worth it when you know what the answer will be? Should it matter? Is it time for me to hold the cards? I wish I had the answers to these questions. Sometimes I wish I had all the answers. Sometimes I think if we were just together then everything would work itself out, but what I think doesn't seem to matter-- not to say that's a bad thing necessarily, it takes two to tango, I guess. It doesn't matter what you want if the other person doesn't want the same thing. It's so confusing. I wish someone could just give me the answers, tell me what to do, or tell me where to go from here.

Do you trust your head or your heart? Which one is the right one? It's not always the same feeling. Can you ever forget something like this? Will I ever be able to move on, stop crying, and get it together? Memories overwhelm me and the tears start falling. Most of the time I'm not upset. I'm remembering all the good times. As I'm sitting there looking at her I remember the jokes we had, the love we made, and the promises we made. How can someone just throw all of that away?

The changing emotions is killing me. The weird limbo is confusing. I think she just wants the best of both worlds. I'm still in her life, but I can't get mad or care about what she wants to do. If she's with someone else I can't care because "we're not together". Bullshit. If you want to be with me, you want to be with me.. It's that simple.