sober.

I've often wondered why people turn to alcohol when their lives don't go as planned. When I came to college I slowly learned being drunk makes you numb to the world. Not having feelings is an amazing feeling, but it's also an art work. You have to be at the right stage of drunkenness. If you have to much or too little it gets dramatic. No one wants to be the drunk girl crying in the bathroom. One must be in that weird limbo where your emotions just shut down. When you're at that point everything in the world just feels okay. It's a weird sort of happiness because you're not feeling sorrow. No regrets or mistakes, just numbness. Nothing. This time I'm doing it sober, maybe.

I still think we could
`cause you and me, we`re good
And I`ll tell you why this hurts, 'cause I`m sober
But I just wanna be drunk
so I can forget about you
and all the stupid things that love has pulled me through
Even when I've had too much,
I still feel your touch
Maybe this just means that I`m not drunk enough